by Stephanie Olson, Set Me Free Ministries Co-founder
Do any of you have wishy-washy faith?
Oh, I know, that isn't something that anyone wants to readily admit. But God knows whether we want to admit it or not, so perhaps it's something we should take a look at.
The other day I found myself convicted again. I realized that there are times when my faith is, well, wishy-washy.
I have been the head of Set Me Free Ministries for five years now. It's been quite a journey of ups and downs. There are days when I am absolutely baffled as to why God would call me into such an area that is not in my ability. And yet, I am reminded often that God doesn't call the equipped, but He equips the called. There are days when I love what I do and I want to sing and dance (and I do) to celebrate the amazing things that I have seen God do through this ministry. I am reminded often that it is not in my own power that I (or anyone else on our team) can do this but only through the power of the Holy Spirit.
But then there are days when I simply want to throw in the towel — days when I'm ready to give it all up and stay in the comfort of my Christian bubble and raise my kids, be a wife, go to church, and do nothing else outside of my comfort zone. There are a lot of those days.
When I can see God moving in the ministry I get excited. It's thrilling to see God move. And yet, sometimes God is silent. And if I'm honest, when He is silent, there are times that I have the mistaken belief in my "logical" mind that God isn't moving. And if I'm honest, there are times when I feel that God isn't moving that I get a little wishy-washy. And that's where the conviction came in.
I was feeling this way (the boohoo for me part), and something good happened. All of a sudden my attitude shifted, my mood changed, and I was "up" again. And God so clearly spoke to me in my spirit and said, "Stephanie, I have always been faithful. I have never let you down. You can't allow your circumstances affect your faith." Ouch. So true!
So, if your circumstances are causing you to shake in your boots a little, remember that your circumstances may change, but God never does. We can't accomplish anything mighty in our own power, but in His power we can accomplish anything He calls us to do! Regardless of whether we can see Him moving, be assured, He is moving!
I want to leave you with a few scriptures to help remind you, just like He had to remind me, that He is, was, and will always be the Holy, Sovereign, Living God!
- I will bless the Lord who has given me counsel; My heart also instructs me in the night seasons. I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved. (Psalm 16:7-8)
- My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. (Psalm 62:5-7)
- But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior." (Isaiah 43:1-3a)
- Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. (Thessalonians 5:16-18)
- Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:11-13)
Now, who can be wishy-washy with those promises?!