by Stephanie Olson
God, why are you blessing that person and not me? I can see how they treat others and it’s definitely not Christ-like! I can see how they talk to someone as if they are best friends with them and then bad-mouth the same person behind their back. I can see how they run their business; definitely not with integrity. God, what am I doing wrong? Why are you blessing them and not me?
Have you ever said words even remotely similar to this? Have you ever watched another Christian that is not necessary walking in the way you think they should, and yet, God seems to pour blessing upon blessing on them? Have you ever thought that God doesn’t let you get away with anything without conviction of the Holy Spirit quicker than you can blink, and yet, others He allows to wallow in sinfulness?
I know I can’t be alone. It’s frustrating. It can be confusing. And it appears at times that God allows us to watch seemingly underserving people skyrocket ahead in life while we are left in the dust of their boots. Why is that? Boy, I don’t know.
But I do know this. I know that all that God does is good. I know that He knows the beginning from the end, and I know that He loves me. I know that He loves you too.
Peter, one of my favorite disciples (probably because I can relate to him), was brash, arrogant, spoke without thinking, and loved the Lord. Peter thought He had completely blown it when He denied Jesus publicly at the Messiah’s arrest. But, mercifully, our Jesus is a forgiving God. After Jesus was resurrected He restored Peter and told Him, “Feed My sheep. Most assuredly, I say to you, when you were younger, you girded yourself and walked where you wished; but when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and another will gird you and carry you where you do not wish.” This He spoke, signifying by what death he would glorify God. And when He had spoken this, He said to him, “Follow Me.”
But Peter wasn’t so sure about what He was told. He wanted to know about “the other guy.” He said, “But Lord, what about this man?" And our Lord said, “If I will that he remain till I come, what is that to you? You follow Me.” In other words, Mind your own business!
Ugh! I hate that. Mind your own business. I know as a parent I have said that to my own kids many times. We understand that they are unique; they learn differently, they are in different stages in life, and they have different maturity levels. We are no different in the body of Christ. And although, we understand this logically, it doesn’t make it any less difficult to go through.
We are loved by a mighty God and He knows exactly what we need when we need it. He knows the things we can’t see and He knows what will be good for us and what will hurt us. And yes, He knows that other person too. And whether or not God is blessing them or simply allowing them to be blessed, it is not our concern. When we focus on what God has called us to do and when we are obedient, we will be blessed in God’s timing, power, and might. How could it get better than that?
So for those of you out there like me, looking at those “not so deserving people” (I know! My humanness is showing), take heart. He loves you!
O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
2 You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
3 You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
5 You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.
7 Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
8 If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall[a] on me,”
Even the night shall be light about me;
12 Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
13 For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;[b]
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.
19 Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!
Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.
20 For they speak against You wickedly;
Your enemies take Your name in vain.[c]
21 Do I not hate them, O Lord, who hate You?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.